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edited to date: I noticed this post in the "draft" folder on my blog. I had written it in the fall of 2010 while I was teaching and was the Honor Society Sponsor at LCS, and for some reason I just never posted it. As I reread it, I realized I let Satan win by not posting it. I remember being so touched and affected by this experience. Shame on me for not sharing it!)
Last month, some of my students and I had the privilege of visiting Blair E. Batson Children's Hospital in Jackson. Both our Honor Society and Student Council worked together to collect crayons and coloring books for patients of the hospital. The officers and sponsors delivered these items and actually got to meet and play with some of the patients.
In planning this event, I'll be honest here, I really just wanted to drop off the supplies, take a quick picture and be done with it all. We, but really it was more so I, wouldn't have to feel anything or see anything sad. Just do the good deed, accomplish the service project, and that would be it.
Was that selfish of me? I mean, wouldn't that be enough?
Well, my principal didn't think so. When I asked him about it, he thought it would be a great idea for us meet with these children. The experience, in his words, "would be life changing, and these students need to see this." And I knew he was right. So a couple of weeks later, our little group found ourselves standing outside that hospital in the parking lot nervously waiting to visit with some of the bravest and toughest people we will probably ever meet.
While I'm being honest, let me just say how uncomfortable that moment was. Don't get me wrong. I had been praying days before that God would prepare our hearts for this experience. But still, I just kept thinking :
Are we really ready to see very sick children? How are these students (teenagers!!) going to react? Will they forget the rules and ask inappropriate questions? Will they be too nervous to say anything at all? What should we say during those awkward moments of silence? and lastly,
What if I completely messed up the dates for our visit and we came on the wrong day? (That last one is an unfortunate example of my compulsive worrying... while I'm being honest and all.) Not sure if anyone else was feeling uneasy like me, but we decided to pray before we went into the hospital.
And just as we expected, the Lord met us where we were that day. And from the moment we stepped into the hospital, we felt His presence.
When we met with the Childlife Coordinator, she told us we would be divided into groups and sent to three different floors to visit and play with patients in the activity rooms. As Providence would have it, my group ended up on the floor that handled Oncology.
Really??
For each of us who went, we all had different experiences, and we each left with something different. But make no mistake, we were not the blessing of the day... those children were. I honestly stood humbled and amazed by young people who had every reason in the world to be sad and unhappy. The children we met have learned how to bounce and kick a ball, paint, sing and dance all while being mindful of their "line" and the pole that rolled with them as they played. I overheard a nurse ask one of the girls about the headache she had been having earlier that day. (I'm assuming from her treatment.) She simply shook it off, ignored the nurse, and kept right on entertaining us with her dramatic interpretation of Beyonce.
What we saw that day were the realities of a harsh, unfair, and fallen world. But through those precious children, we saw God somehow glorified, whether the children realized it or not. And maybe it's because young children just don't know any better than to be joyful no matter what. It makes me wonder though, at what point or at what age do we get to let circumstances determine our joy?
All I know is on that night, I hugged my babies extra tight. I cried and prayed over their them while they slept, and I praised God for their health while realizing that it is never guaranteed in this life.
And now, I present to you Collin "Muscle Man" Crager...
Just in case you were wondering, the headband was Collin's idea and the weights were Kyle's.